freakishly long fingers

today has been rough.

so ive realized that sometimes it's the little things that really get to you when you're under stress. i feel like ive walked with my head held relatively high for the last 8 months of my nightmarish life amidst all of the ridiculous and foul scenarios that have presented themselves. yet today... i found myself flustered and annoyed even, at a guy i work with. the "talker" (as i like to call him) was a real ass hole today. yesterday, he thought it necessary to look down at my hands (while i sat, minding my own business, not even talking to him...) and announce to the group in the most disgusted of tones, "woah, you have REALLY long fingers...." i looked up at him a bit shocked, and said, "well im tall for a girl. im 5"8... like- how tall are you?" thinking maybe i could get him to understand that yes- my fingers are longer than his, and it's probably because he's a good 3 inches shorter than me. then tonight he decided to keep it going by bringing it up again, and telling some other guy, "no seriously dude! look at her hands! they're so "weird-looking!" i told him to stop while he was ahead and he came back with some snide remark. i ended up just walking away like i did the times he chose to inform me that my dog was "ugly" and "the ugliest dog ive ever seen." later in the night, i was sitting with a friend, and we were chatting amongst ourselves, when he decided to walk by and make fun of my hands again! i eventually said to him, "listen- if you knew the week i was having, you'd really feel bad for being so mean to me right now." when he continued, my friend and i said at almost the exact same time, "just go away!" (he then acted put out for the rest of the evening.)

i know i shouldn't let stupid idiots get to me, but im having a rough day. it's not like i care what he thinks of my hands, but what baffles me the most is how an individual in a work-place, professional environment could be so blatently rude like that... it is beyond me. most days, when im feeling alright i just blow him off. but today has been a hard day... and tomorrow might be even harder... so it seems it's the smallest, most pointless and ridiculous things that get me feeling flustered or upset.

so.... for all of you curious folks out there... i present to you a picture of my hand with the "weirdly" long fingers. feel free to get on board with the talker, slap a scarlett letter on my chest and throw me outta town. :)