10 things.

1) i no longer work at the source and this rocks my world. instead, im nannying for 3 little dudes each day and it is pretty fab.

2) when im here in their house all alone though, i notice it makes really weird sounds and i get really scared.

3) hmm.

4) the shooting in conneticut is kind of like the worst thing everrrr. i feel like things like this are happening more and more frequently, and to more and more of an extreme. i hate that. i cant imagine how those mommies and daddies must feel. i keep thinking of those little ones, and how they probably had christmas presents wrapped and set neatly beneath the tree. i keep thinking of what it'll be like for their parents on christmas morning when those presents are left unopened. i keep thinking of what it must have been like for those little guys to watch their teacher be murdered right before their eyes. i keep thinking about how that probably broke their heart, because when you're in kindergarten, your teacher kinda hangs the moon and seems famous. then when the gun was pointed in their direction... they must've cried out for their moms and dads. they must have been terrified and wondered why. i keep thinking about kayla. and that sucks. i dont ever want her to know the evil that walks among us. i dont ever want her to know that this has happened, and that it could happen again- without reason or warning. i dont ever want her to know  because if she knows, her sweet 3-year-old innocence will die just a little, and there's just no getting that back. i want her to keep living in a world that she thinks is magical, that she thinks is safe, that she thinks is fun. she deserves that and i want her to have it for as long as she possibly can.

5) christmas is coming and i might just...  get my cute boyrfriend this...

:) i know i shouldnt... but hello!? he is CUTE! and kevin's been wanting a lil dude for awhile now, and i just think he would be so stinkin cute with a red bow wrapped arond his little neck. we'll see... bristol would really love a little companion too. i honestly know that it would be perfect for her. and besides... he's super cute. right? i can talk myself into this using that excuse over and over, huh? i think he will love it.

6) my mom and dad got a new fancy car and so that's super exciting. they got THIS rockin ride and i am jealoussss.

but guess whats also super exciting?? they're giving me their camry! they're driving it out here when they come at christmas and ill kiss the days of being broken down goodbye. the jeep can kick rocks and if i never see that thing again it'll be too soon. gosh i love my parents. they are good to me.

7) oh! did i mention that  my ass hole ex husband made it outta prison? yeah, probably not. and the reason would be that i just dont care. lol.

8) i was planning to make all of my super fun christmas goodies this weekend, but realized we wont have kayla so we'll be pushing it back till next. get ready.

9) in my opinion there are CNN girls and there are FOXnews girls. im a CNN girl. proudly.

10) im so excited for christmas! SO excited! so, so, so, so, so excited!!!!!!!!!! i hope that you are too!

be blessed friends. and as always- be thankful.

update/christmas delight

ive tried blogging a few times in the past couple of months, all to no avail. i wrote about becoming an auntie to what could quite possibly be the very cutest boy on the planet. he is perfection. born on october 16, 2012 at 8:25pm, quinn holds my whole heart right in the palm of his hand. i wanted to post pictures in the blogs i had written about him before and it wont work! which really chaps my hide. like, for real. so... you can see my little quinn on facebook, but because im kinda technologically challenged you'll get none here. sorry dudes.

i also tried writing about falling in love. since last blogging, ive somehow managed to completely fall in love with a man i never imagined existed. he is the nicest man ive ever known. he is beautiful- on the inside and out. he is smart, and funny, and affectionate, and loving. we think all the same things are funny, and we laugh constantly. we spend most of our time talking- for hours. he is a passionate man. passionate about life, passionate about love, and to my very happy surprise, passionate about me. his name is kevin, and if i could keep him forever, i would. here's hoping... :) he went through a similar kind of divorce a while ago too- similar mostly in the fact that it was HARD. he is the daddy to the prettiest, and sweetest, most adorable little lady on the planet- kayla. aka- "my kayla bug." i love her. not really sure what else there is to say... other than that id like to keep her forever too. she's what i like to call "saucy," and i love it. she's tough, and she knows just what she wants. more than anything though? she's sweet, and has very quickly become my best friend. we are involved in what i like to call "a pretty serious love affair." i feel blessed, and i feel so lucky to have these two precious souls in my life. im so glad i have followed my heart in previous relationships because my choices have lead my here... to him... and to her. and to be honest? there's no where else in the world id rather be. i wanted so badly to post pictures of the life we share together... but again, no can do. :/ in just two and half short months, we have managed to create more memories than i can count and i wish, wish, wish i was able to share the pics and document all of our silly stories. :/

anyway, i guess i figured i should update even if my shady tech skills wont allow me to share pics. i AM however, in a position to share some pics of some holiday fun kayla, kevin and i will have in the upcoming weeks. (weird that im able to share these pics and not the others, right? whatevs.)

we plan to have a baking party and make all kinds of super cute, delicious christmas treats. i did this in nashville every year, and had such fun distributing my delicious delicacies to friends around town. thats the plan for this year too- so dont be alarmed if we show up at your door with christmas goodies in hand, made with sugar and with love. (this will probably be happening the weekend of december 14th... so dont say i didnt warn you!)  :)

some of things you may find....

is your mouth watering yet? lol. im super excited to make these goodies with my little side kick kayla. she will have such fun, and it'll be a tradition we'll make happen each year. so! if you know you rock my world... and you know you are my peep... get ready! cause the christmas goodies are on the way!

im so, so, so glad that christmas is here friends. it is my most favorite time of year, and i love it. our tree is absolute perfection, our chritmas candles burn each day, and the christmas tunes are blaring constantly. im blessed to think of my life a year ago... and then to look around and realize how lucky i am to call this reality my own. i love you all so much, and i hope that your christmas season is just as magical as mine.

be blessed friends. and as always, be thankful.