disturbed

for someone like me who enjoys to believe that life is good, that people around me are genuinely good and honest, and that my surroundings are safe, it is really hard for me to deal with the reality of such a disturbing situation. what has this world come to?

so the tv is on some show that i have only been half way listening to. it's a show on 'E' about how young, beautiful girls have just disappeared... of course these aren't my favorite types of shows which would explain why im only half way interested. the bottom line is that i prefer to live in a little bubble. a bubble where there is no violence or hate, no dangers lurking right around the corner. it just makes more sense to me- to avoid dealing with the reality, and not have to live in fear. well anyway, so even though ive only been half way listening, ive noticed a bit of a trend with each of these cases. the majority of the girls taken, were eventually found to be taken by convicted sex offenders. convicted sex offenders that had served their time, and were out, living in communities. SO- it kinda got me thinking... ive heard oprah talk about this a lot, but have never actually taken the time or interest in researching the sex offender registry available. now i kinda wish i hadn't... i typed in my address and it wasn't long before... wait for it.... wait.... ONE HUNDRED AND FIVE sex offenders names popped up as living within 5 miles of my home. first of all, you should all know that i do not live in the ghetto. our home is located in a really charming, quaint, little community. a community where neighbors wave each morning, on your way out to work. a community where i feel and have always felt, very safe. but one hundred and five convicted sex offenders within a five mile radious of my home? totally unacceptable.

the bottom line though, is that this type of thing is everywhere! violence, crime, depressed people making terrible choices... i learned this early in life when the columbine shooting took place 20 minutes from my home when i was a junior in high school. it was terribly sad, and devastated our entire community! but what i found interesting though, is that the columbine shooting took place in highlands ranch, colorado- the area where everyone said was best. the area that everyone said was safest. the area that my aunt and uncle badgered my mom and dad to buy in when we moved there, and judged them when they couldnt afford to do so. they said there was just so much violence and crime in the area they could afford to buy in... highlands ranch was much safer. well... we all know how true that was on april 20th, 1999. thats a day i will never forget. so i get that crime happens everywhere. bad things happen everywhere. innocent people find themselves to be victims of terrible hate everywhere.

such a reality check though, to learn that i am surrounded by 105 convicted sex offenders on a daily basis. and especially to know that it's going to be that way everywhere we go. this may be totally politically incorrect and wrong but, i really wish that sex offenders would just be put to death. and not to say that an offender who preys on a grown woman is great (cause he's not!), but child sex offenders especially need to rot in hell. i just dont think they deserve to live. i don't think they deserve to have a home 5 miles from mine. i don't think it's fair that as i walk my dog around my neighborhood, i will now wonder if the offenders are lurking, if theyre passing me on the streets as i walk, if they're holding some innocent girl inside their house torturing them. i hate that when im out with my little cuties, i will now have an abnormal awareness of who and what is going on around me and the babe. not to say that i don't handle each situation with care when im out and about with them already... but i just feel like if some suspect guy even looked in little jenna claire's direction... oh man... i can't even begin to think of it. these are the reasons i have chosen for so long, to ignore realities such as these. never the less, education is power, and ignorance is bliss, right? my suggestion to each of you is to get onto that registry and do some research. though it will inevitably disturb you, i think it's important to empower ourselves with information like this so we know what we're dealing with.