that ive decided to stay?
like... decided, decided. it's done. the decision is made, and i feel good about it.
here are a few thoughts on this topic of conversation:
1) im pretty sure these last 3 months of living here have sucked because of what i was going through with the whole divorce debacle. of missing my husband (the one that USED to be... NOT the one i divorced!), of missing my charmed life where i was constantly surrounded by beautiful things, of missing my routine, my "nomal." but it's like i was failing to realize that the last 3 months would have been a complete and TOTAL nightmare no matter WHERE i was living. i couldn't give up on this gorgeous place over the three worst months of my life. because they woulda been the 3 worst months of my life no matter what! and colorado wasn't the issue... my marital status was. now that THAT'S finally resolved and as it should be, ive come back to life. literally- ive crawled out from under the rock i buried myself under, and i began to live again. and i looked around me, and thought "oh! i can do this!"
2) im really thankful for my job. like.... REALLY thankful! so thank you heather mcardell for putting in the good word for me, and filling out my application because i was too busy drowning in my nashville life to make the time! this job fell into my lap... like- literally. i moved here, and applied to hundreds of different positions, and not one single company even inquired about meeting me. i had the interview with allosource scheduled before i even left nashville, and met with them the 4th day i was even here. a week later they called, offered me the job and i accepted! glad to have a job, but reluctant because of what the job entailed... i just really wasn't sure it would work for me. but i was wrong to ever hesitate! this company is UHmazing! today for example... they paid me to see a doctor/massage therapist on the premises for my lower back pain. i saw him last week too! and he's doing something to my back that's never been done before, and it's helping! and i have allosource to thank for that!
in less than 4 months ill be promoted to tech 2 and get a pay raise, and i just know that the growth and the movement won't stop there. i got my little 97% accuracy rating for january's paperwork, and felt so encouraged to continue growing there. this company does UHmaaazing things. and while many people like to make fun of me, and act all disgusted when i try to explain what it is that i do... the truth of the matter is that, it's important work that i do there. and im pretty sure if it were YOUR child, or mom, or dad, or husband, in the hospital and covered in 3rd degree burns, you wouldn't think of what i do to be so terrifying. all of the sudden you'd magically become thankful for the work that my team and i do. you'd think twice before making fun of us. it feels really good to be a part of something that matters. like really matters- to a lot of people. we hear from families who have received transplants and who have lived because of those transplants, and it's really an honor to be a part of that process. i like working there. im proud to work there. im anxious about the opportunities that are waiting for me down the road there. i think it would be impossible- really impossible, to replace allosource.
3) ive met all kinds of new, fun friends, and have managed to maintain a connection with a few of the old as well. i can see myself in another 3 months busy, busy, busy spending time with really fun, great people. just like i thought it would be! that's encouraging!
4) i wake up every day. every single day, to a sunny sky. there's something to be said for that. there's also something to be said for the fact that on my way to work each day, i can look out of my window and see for miles. sometimes those mountains are so clear, it feels like i could just reach out and touch em. it is really gorgeous here, and i am SO excited for spring/summertime to arrive so that bristol anne and i can be out in it more! like seriously- we are both so ready!
so yeah- there ya have it. bristol and i have decided to become permanant residents of the state of colorado. we snuggle each night, and have little conversations about finding a new home for just us. we are excited. :)
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