8 things

there' s a lot going on and running through my head right now.  in times like these... i turn to list making. ahhh- i love lists. :)

1) i am planning a walk for the baby i mentioned a few weeks ago trek. he is dying, and it is sad. and i want to do something for people to come together, share their love, show their support, and help raise some fundage for the (im sure) mounting medical bills. it will be awesome! i am so inspired, and excited. i need to start by getting a team together. and then i need to work on getting sponsors to donate mulah so that i can apply for the permits, and set the date. the rest will be easy, breezy, smooth sailing from there! whoo hoo. im excited.

2) i am moving into my own place.... THIS weekend! (and no it's not a home i bought- we decided with the maarch 31st deadline i was given, we just didn't have the time to do the whole "buying a home thing" the right way. that's not a decision i feel comfortable rushing into ya know?) so im going to rent for maybe a year, while we keep our eyes peeled for something fabulous to buy. something fabulous with LOTS of potential! :) and im renting the property, which is privately owned, but is managed by my real estate agent, who said if we find something to buy sooner than my lease is over he can be sure and make it work. that's nice.

so yeah- in like 3 more days bristol anne and i will be on our own! wow! exciting stuff, right?? we'll be renting a townhome in parker. 2 bed/bath. more space than we need, but a really good deal, and close to work, so i just couldnt say no. with all that space, it's gonna feel pretty empty... but im hoping it wont matter cause it'll be ours. just us. it will be the closure that ive been wanting. it will symbolize this tragic nightmare ENDING! whoo hoo!

3) did you know that i think the girl scouts hit it big when they invented the somoa? like- i often wonder why they ever made any others to buy... what's the point? everyone loves a somoa... right??

4) my mom and dad are amazing. like seriously. i am in awe. i don't even know what to say about the graciousness and generosity they show me. they are the main reason i know that getting a divorce was the best thing. and not just because they've been happily married for 35 years either. because they have shown me what REAL, authentic, true love feels like. they are selfless and loyal, and loving, and supportive. and when i really began to compare that love to what i was given in my marriage, i realized that the love i was given in my marriage was less than ideal. it was a selfish kind of love that i was given, an inconsistant kind of love, and certainly not a reliable, love-ya-long-time-do-ANYthing-for-ya kinda love. i was lucky if i could get him to show up to pick me up when he was supposed to. the love my parents have shown me, is really what has taught me what was wrong and what was missing with the love id settled for.

5) on that note- ive decided a few things about love. id like to find it again. and i believe i will. things are looking up for me right now, and im realizing that god really DOES know the desires of my heart, and has plans for me to prosper and be well. i believe that... i really do. and because ive only just ever, ever, ever wanted to be a wife and a mommy, i believe god will bring that to me. and in his perfect timing. yup. i bet this one will be TALL too... i always wanted a tall guy like my daddy. now THAT'S a true desire of my heart. LOL. :)

6) bristol is running in her sleep right now. i wonder where to... or where from. she and i have gotten remarkably closer since getting rid of her daddy. lol. i love her so much, that when work is almost ending for the night, i begin to get really excited about coming home to her sweet little love of a face.

7) i do not have a tv for my new apartment. which means (unfortunately) i will not be able to get cable. but i WILL want internet. because if i can't have cable, ill at least want internet, right? except, isn't it smartest to do like a bundled deal thing? like, don't you typically get a better deal? hmm.

8) im feeling tired, and i hafta be up earlier than usual tomorrow, so i think ill spoon my bb and drift off to never never land.

be blessed friends. and as always- be thankful.