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becoming an auntie and falling in love with kevin are the two best things about my year spent being 30.

my nephew has my heart in a way no other man ever has. i have never known a love like i have for him, and im lovin it. quinn is hands down- the cuh-yutest baby boy i have ever ever ever seen. his chubby cheeks make me smile. he makes me wanna be a better me. i cant wait to spend my whole life loving him, and spoiling him rotten. when i waited for him to come, if ever i felt a little lost or off track, he gave me purpose. he gave me what i needed to look forward to. when he arrived, it was the very best day of my life. he is the best thing that ever happened to me. i love, love, love him. i cant wait to spend my life showing him that i would do anything... anything at all, to see him smile.

falling in love with kevin was all the right things. exciting, nerve racking, fun, and so, so, so sweet. i love kevin because he is the nicest man ive ever met. he too- challenges me to be a better me. he is so affectionate, but not overly so in an obnoxious way. he laughs at all the same things i do, and his laugh is really warm hearted. when he smiles, he smiles with his whole face; he smiles with his eyes. his blue eyes are like a window into his deeper self, and i love that they give everything away. i find his authenticity to be so incredibly attractive. he is very sure of himself, but not in an overly confident sort of way. he says what he means, and he means what he says. there's just no bull shit with kevin. we sometimes bicker about stupid things, and we've learned stress management skills on both sides would probably be helpful. he is never afraid to apologize in the end though, and seems to be very resolution oriented if ever we do have a little tiff.  kevin is a tremendously loving father. his little lady is the apple of his eye. he never raises his voice with her, but speaks calmly and with purpose. he is so patient. he listens to her when most people (even me!) would rather throw the towel in and peace out. kevin is protective, and holds my heart with regard. kevins hands are too-die-for. so strong, and sturdy. he holds my hand as we fall asleep each night, and makes sure i know those strong hands are here to catch me, if ever i fall down. i get lost in his hugs. i crave more of him each day. regardless of where this life may take us, as long as im beside him i will be okay. i know that. this is the ending i had always hoped to find. he is my happily ever after. the war is over. whats most exciting though, is that it's only just begun. our life is just taking shape. we are learning and growing, and dreaming, and just, just, just getting started. watch out world, here we come!

the last thing i learned at 30 is that the petty bull shit is just not for me. get on board, or get off my truck. i will be living life, chosing to be happy and if youd like to join me? welcome aboard! if youre not with it? if you wanna fight? be unreasonable? disrespectful? mean? see ya later bitches. im over it. i will walk away. i will live my life. i worked too hard for this life ive got, to waste any time worrying about, trying to understand and/or to tip toe around your feelings. seriously though! id love to have you take this journey with me. theres just one rule, and one rule only: no bull shit allowed.

thanks for sticking with me through 30 guys! you rock!

be blessed friends, and as always- be thankful.